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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
不能双手弹琴的日子
28/11/2007 下午三点，在等待五点去大学拿那令人害怕的成绩时，打算整理一下自己的桌子，刚刚去了Carefour，其中一个书包被那保安人员用一个塑料绳子绑了起来，就拿起剪刀要剪掉那塑料绳子，但是剪刀好像不够利，剪不断，就用刀片，刚好桌上有把新的刀片，是前几天拿出来借人割东西的。我不假思索，就拿起那把刀片，往塑料绳子切了下去。
一切下去，糟糕了，另一边手指满了鲜血，一滴一滴地滴在地上，我大叫一声，打算用水洗掉那些血，可是，那血还是照流不止，就像开着的水龙头，一直流，不管我怎么做，那血还是不能止住....
于是马上冲出房间，房友在客厅，她看见我的情况，也紧张起来，我俩讨论怎么办，我说，没什么，血一下会止了（其实我没什么把握），叫一个会FirstAid的同学来包扎一下就可以了。她说，不能，一定要去看医生，怕发生什么事，我们就这样匆匆忙忙的下楼去，搭计程车去诊疗所，电话都没带。医生帮我检查后，叫我去医院，因为他怀疑我连筋都割断了，需要动手术接回。医生帮我将伤口包扎起来，暂时解决了血一直流的问题。
当时我不知怎么办，因为，我没带电话出门，不知联络谁。没办法，只好用诊疗所电话致电爸爸（其他成人的电话号码我不会背），向他要了舅舅的电话。舅舅之后送我到了医院。
晚上九点，医生才确认我必须住院动手术。长话短说，这间医院太糟糕了，从四点抵达这里，九点才被专科医生通知需入院动手术...而且我是被送入紧急部门的哦。我是手指问题还没什么，可是身边那些快垂死的病人，竟和我一起在等待！！
HUKM, 这就是去年世界排名1?? 的大学的医院，去年因排名高过马大，荣升全国最好大学位置，可是它的医院却是这样的。难怪今年的世界大学排名中，连这间大学也跌出200名以外。
晚上十一点，我吃完在医院的第一也是最后一个餐（因为过后我足足禁食禁水了二十八个小时！！），也签下了动手术证书。医生来告诉我其实当晚他们打算为我动手术的，但是突然有个Emergency案发生，危及人命，手术室不够用，明天早上才可以为我开刀，要我谅解。
30/11/2007 凌晨一点，已经二十六个小时没喝水及进食了，护士才来叫我去动手术。手术时间竟然可以从前天晚上拖到现在！！
早上十点，我终于可以出院了，可是手被包扎得像木乃伊的手那样，里面放了一只铁。
那天，开始了我不能双手弹琴的日子，因为筋（Tendon）需要六星期来复原，不是Regeneration,是Fibrosis。六星期后，我才可以开始物理治疗，才可以开始双手弹琴。现在，坐在钢琴前，只能用一边手弹，有点担心我的右手会Hypertrophy，其实是不可能的事啦。
就祈祷我的手指快快复原吧！！ =)
December 12, 2007 at 09:27 AM
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
My choice
Finally finish my 1st summative edy, so happy, but its only d 1st exam, still got alot more......n avthing i study now had to last till sem10...cant imagine, dat time i oledi in clinical school dy lor..
Local uni result out dis monday, surprisingly i got medicine in usm, is one of my favourite choice but yet not my first choice. Anyway, b4 d result out, i oledi make up my mind i don wan to shift uni dy, i m very happy here, with lots of friends around, going to d best chinese church in kl, having so many ppls care about me here........
But reality come when i went bac hometown after my summative, dad wan me go USM, which my campus is at kelantan.........I don wan to go, i jst start my life here, now need to adapt to new environment again?! Den another suggestion come, go NUS study in faculty of science which offer me a place there......but i wan to continue at IMU leh...
I know its a 2k vs 5k vs 50k decision, i cant afford to chose 50k but i really don wan d 2k one..... My cg leader told me, jz believe in GOD, He will prepare avtins for me, i believe n i believe if God wan me to stay back, he sure will provide n give me d correct answer..
Haiz, hd to relax n enjoy my 1st holiday in uni first, don think so much, believe all in God's hand!!!
June 22, 2007 at 12:29 PM
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Colourful World
Recently i dye my hair, em, i should say, i blonde my hair...
Really unbelievable ya, i oso think so, nvr think dat i will dye my hair in my life...
But something change my mind, i realize God is a colourful God, n now we hd enter an era of colourful world...
Few years ago, we only hv black white screen hp..
Few years back, d pc we use is in black n white screen..
Few more years back, d photostat machine we hv can only photostat n give us black n white pages..d printer we use can only print black n white pages oso..
Few more more years back, d TV we(ooo, is our parents) watch is in black n white screen...
Few more more more years back, d inks we use for writing only hv black colour....
Few more more more more years back................
Ya, todays world is a colourful world, we hv colourful advertisment to attract customers, we have colour printer, d pc we use is in colour screen, d hp mos of d teenages hold is colour hp, everywhere we c is colourful world, houses no more paint in black n white only, there's alot of colours....
Actually there's nothing to do with our hair colour, jst i wan to try somethings different, to make a different, to b more colourful in appearance, i don wan to b a dull looking person, n don wan to b a nerd too, although i use to b.....
So, i blonde n cut my hair 2 weeks ago, at a church member's house.
I know if i don hv inner strength n inner beauty, there's no point for me to hv a blonde hair n b fashionable in outlook...
Like what Pastor Aries that come to my church last weekend mention.. Some ppl may b very conservative outward, but very dirty inside, this is fa li sai ren ; whereas, some ppl can b fashionable n colourful in their appearance but inside them, they r conservative, ie they r very strong in God's word, they respect their parents, they try to excell in everything they do.... Dis is d new era christian!! N dis is oso my ambition n goal..
Oya, for my church member in my hometown n those who r still in school, there's something call school rules, so pls don abide d rules, i m not encouraging u all to dye ur hair, u will hv chance once u excell academically n enter uni..
Hope everyone got bless........ ^_^
July 23, 2007 at 10:23 PM
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
大学生活
终于又有机会写部落了，这次想用华文写，就练练我的华文吧，也顺便证明自己是个华校生，并以此为荣。
屈指一算，自己在这件所谓（也是事实啦）全吉隆坡最贵的大学念书已有将近七个月了，也念完了大学第一年的基本课程，现在在等着十一月那恐怖的大考，也开始进入System课程了，去了医院几趟，虽然好像都是去玩而已（没有啦，我有认真听，因为要交报告的喔），可是至今仍未见过死尸，塑料做的模型就看和摸了很多。。。
这篇就写写自己在IMU的经历吧，毕竟我念的这间是私立大学，许多方面都和本地大学不一样，单单讲学费就够了，尤其是医科。
想起几个月前自己放弃马来西亚理科大学的入学资格，偶尔会觉得有点可惜，毕竟拿到本地大学任何一间大学的医学系是许多STPM生的愿望，那学费真是便宜到没话说，我从来都没想过原来马来西亚政府花了这么大笔钱来培养本地的医生，本地大学的医学生只需以少过十巴仙的费用来完成与我们私立大学医学生一样的五年课程！！
但是既然已经作了决定留在私立大学，就要坚持自己的选择。在我的大学里，多数的学生都来自富有的家庭，很多位父母都是专业人士，其中为医生最多（至少都现在为止我知道的是这样），不然就是牙医，工程师，政治家，老师，政府部门高级职员，教授，企业家。。。等等。
曾经有同学问我：“你的父母是医生吗？”我说不是，他接下来就问，“那位为什么你要来念医科？”我呆在那儿，笑笑，不知如何回答。不是我不知道为什么我选这课，是我实在很惊讶，难道只有医生的孩子才可念医科吗，我的意思是，在私立大学念医科吗？
不要以为这里的学生都是靠钱才进到的喔，许多人都对私立大学生有偏见，尤其像我念这间学费贵得可以买一辆汽车（Kancil啦）的大学，可能很多人会认为在私立大学念医科的学生都是因为政府大学不要收他们才来这里念的（这也是为何几个月前我父母想尽办法要说服我去念政府大学），这想法可是大错特错了，我的同学中，也有些是拿到政府大学医科系的，不但如此，也有些甚至是拿到外国大学入学资格的，如新加坡国立大学，澳洲墨尔本大学，英国剑桥大学，台湾台北大学等等。
我承认这里的学生很富有，可是许多学生都是很友善，不骄傲做作的。还有这里多数是华人，受英文教育的华人，印度人也不少，也有马来同胞，外国学生，但比率上华人占多。马来同胞不用多说，大家也心知肚明，他们很多个背后都有政府撑腰的，也就是说是JPA或MARA赞助生。
这里的学生多多少少都有一定的智商，而且由于家庭背景都比较好，尤其那些父母是医生的，在还未进大学前都有接触到关于这方面的知识，许多时候教授还未教某些科目时，他们都明白了。
唯一遗憾的是，这里许多华人不译华文，一些会讲，但不会看华文，有时候也真为他们感到可惜，身为华人，自己的母语都不译，也难免太丢脸了吧。为何我从来没有看过不译马来文的马来人或不译印度文的印度人或不会讲英文的英国人？但是无论如何，我也应该感谢他们，与他们沟通久了我发现自己的英文进步了不少，至少现在要我讲英文我不会像以前那么辛苦的想着下个字要怎么说。
由于在大学天天都是English，课本英文，讲章英文，考试英文，沟通英文，在图书馆讲英文，在讲堂讲英文，去医院讲英文，去大学的基督团契讲英文，复印书本讲英文，买东西讲英文，跟朋友聊天讲英文，什么都是英文，害我现在在大学看见任何人自然都会说英文。
记得有一天一位学长来我家，看见我正在看华文报，马上对我说，“嘿，原来你会看华文报的啊，为何还要害我每次陪你说英文？！”当时突然觉得自己被训得莫名其妙，原来有人认为我是“香蕉人”啊，不是吧！！！
无论如何，我真的要为自己能够在IMU念书感恩，还有四年多，为我加油吧！！
September 23, 2007 at 10:51 AM
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
New sport shoe
Was in hospital recently for my finger-surgery check up.
Saw one blind guy, his parents beside him holding his hand, he is wearing a new shoe.
I can see how much the parents care for him.
Yes true, when we have trouble, the only people we can trust is our family members, esp our parents...NOT our bf/gf or friends...!!
I admire the boy's parents, i can imagine all those hardship they had gone thru in life to bring this boy up...
Even he is blind, his parents still trying to give him the best,
he is wearing a very nice shirt, a nice new shoe, and a nice pants.
So, bond with ur family more, and sick will make u realize what is actually important in ur life...........and who actually takes care of u.
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Third Party
I always think this wont happen, but after much thinking, i think what i think is correct.
Third party is always between my relationship.
When i refuse to teman him, he treaten he will go other girl house to spend a night with her.
When i make him angry, he say he will go out with the girl.
When we quarrel, he will ask me why cant i treat him better abit, like how the other girl treat her.
When we break, he say he want to have a new life with another girl.
The last time he phone me, he told me he is planning to accept another girl, the girl that like him very much and can treat him more than 10 times better than me.
Now, maybe he is with that girl, give her promises that he used to give me, make her the happiest girl in the world. Force her to change (maybe?!).
Sometime i do miss everything that happen, but i know things that had changed cant change back, mistake that had make cant be corrected again.
I keep myself busy these few weeks, just to let the time do its work, ya, i m happier now.
Ppl always think that i break up with my bf is because of religion reason,
But inside my heart, i know another reason is third party.
I don tell my classmates during the "True story telling" time when we last have our gathering in Mvalley, i dono will they believe, but i know it's true.
My ex-bf left me for another girl.
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Friday, December 07, 2007
one year edy...
Story of them.
This is what I want to say:
About a story of 1 blur girl n 1 smart guy.
I am going to do my confession already anyway. So I m not afraid typing out it here.
There is a guy and a girl who grown out together in a same small town. They are in same class since primary school, till finish form 5.
Dec 2006, the girl just finishes her STPM, and she went on a trip to Johor with her good friend to attend a church camp.
On the way back to their hometown, the guy thrown out a question to the girl, “will u be my girlfriend?”
The girl accepted him, but she is afraid of her strict family background that do not allow her to went into a relationship so fast, so, she didn’t give the guy a very clear answer, but in her heart, she had accepted him…….But he dono, he thought the girl don’t like him and just simply give an answer to entertain him..
Weeks after, the guy is going back to KL to further his study, the girl just finish exam, so is at home waiting for result, but meanwhile, she got an offer to an private uni in KL too, commerce at Feb 2007.
One day, the guy suddenly phones the girl, telling her that he is coming back from KL to their hometown, and he wanted to meet the girl.
Overjoying, the girl waited for the day of his return. And he didn’t disappointed the girl either, both of them have a great time celebrating Christmas together, the guy brought the girl a Christmas gift, which according to him also can be the girls birthday gift as the girl birthday is few days after Christmas.
Few days later, the girl went to KL to settle her pre enter university procedure, and she asks the guy out too. She also asks her other good friend out too, and they did come. The guy purposely took a taxi to the shopping complex to meet up with the girl. The girl that still haven’t give him a CONFIRM answer of their relationship. Well, great times are spent in KL as well.
A month passes by, the girl doesn’t know about her status, the guy too. Both of them keep on SMS each other and keep a more-than-friendship kind of relationship. And the guy will call the girl every fortnight to tell her how much he love her. She felt that she is a very lucky girl at that time, and she purposely sleep late to wait for his call every single night.
Then it was valentine day, the girl went to Taiwan with her mum and misses the opportunity to celebrate the important day with her 1st bf, the boy was sad, the girl was disappointed too.
Days later, it is Chinese New Year, both guy n girl are in their hometown, the girl miss the opportunity to watch the firecrackers with the guy because she is busy with editing video for the church CNY Thanksgiving service. She got the order last minute and she just touched down Malaysia on CNY eve, which she obviously not given enough time to finish it, and the girl didn’t sleep at all during that CNY eve.
They met each other for the 1st time in more than 1 month in the girl’s church, and later at night, the went out for officially 1st dating together, in Lumut, the guy fetch the girl there. That night is the night the girl went home latest. She is happy, but upon reaching home, she gets scolded badly by her dad, a second scold in a day on CNY.
They relationship developed stably as time pass by. Week after CNY, the girl went to KL and start her university life there. And the guy being the one had been staying in KL for half a year, spent time to bring the girl around KL, showing her his care, and his love.
There are in love, for quite some time, on the guys birthday, the girl ask the guy out to Eyes of Malaysia to celebrate, and they have the sweetest memory there. Good time are for short while.
The next day after the guy’s birthday, the girl’s STPM result out. And to everyone surprise, the girl didn’t get full As in her STPM despite being the top student throughout her whole form 6 year in the school….
Having a real hard time to accept the truth, the girl cry off the first time in front of the guy, she is sad, and she really is. Being a top student that didn’t emerge as the top student in government exam surely a shameful moment for the girl. She refuse to answer her dad’s call, her friend’s call, just because she felt so shameful of herself. Although she got 3A1A- in STPM, but for her, this is the worst result someone would ever get, especially she knew she did very well for 2 out of 3 paper of the subject that she got A-.
The guy had give her fully support, and comfort her. She is touched.
Time pass, the girl slowly accepts the truth, and she started to apply for local university with her result. Months later, she got into NUS, not her 1st choice, medic course in a local university, not her 1st choice too.
During that period of time, the guy start going to the same church as the girl, the girl who is always very kind and don’t know how to reject people and told people her opinion had been treat one kind by her church. Due to transport problem, the girl always is the one that need to spend her time waiting for people to arrange transport for her to leave the church. And all her precious weekend time spent waiting for people to fetch. The guy doesn’t understand why the girl can stand this situation, he knows the girl know also that her time had been wasted by her church member, but she never voice out…
Sooner, time spent by the girl in church become the couple’s quarrel issue most of the time, the guy wanted the girl to stop spending so much time in the church. The church member wanted the girl stop going out with the guy so often, which already is as less as less than 1 time per week.
Deciding between church n the guy, the girl wanted to please everyone, but apparently she fail. The guy is very angry with the girl, the church member still keep on pressuring the girl and wanting her to give up on the guy.
Obviously the girl cannot give up on her 1st love so easily, but she can’t stand the church pressure and the guy’s pressure too. So the couple has a lot of conflict. Mean time, the guy felt that the girl is not respecting him as what he thinks she should. The girl that so blur till don’t know the guys feeling. She realizes this later on but it’s too late to recover the situation already.
Church member pressure, study pressure, the guy’s pressure, makes the girl felt that she is not able to take it. She cannot stand all this, yes, she would’ve love to stop going to Saturday night church service and only go for Sunday service. But she knows the church member won’t leave her alone in this issue, she sure will get discipleship once she does that. She would’ve love to go out with her boyfriend more but she knows both of them are very busy with study. This is the course both of them chose and they should bear with it.
One day, the couple has an different opinion on one thing, and they are thinking of breaking off. But they talk it off and are together again. Few weeks after that, problem happen every weeks. Every weeks, both of them will quarrel and wanted to break off at least once, and at the end of the week, they will talk it off and are together again, this scenario keep repeating for few weeks.
There is this day, when the girl doesn’t agree with the guy opinion on something, the guy lift out his hand and slap the girl. Shocked, the girl drop down into tear. She just can’t understand, a gentle guy like his boyfriend will slap girl. The guy that she loves so much and trust so much actually slap her.
Later on, both of them are together again, due to some reason, and the girl thought every problem have solved, but she is wrong again, then again, every single week, the same thing happen again, quarrel, break off, hurt, apologize, be together again………the cycle keep on repeat n repeat endlessly.
Few weeks before their exam, both of them stop contacting each other, the girl told herself, the guy need to concentrate on his study, and his love on her is not as much as when they first together dy. And the girl being a self fish student, also stop contacting the guy because she wanted to do well in her own exam too.
Finally, both of them finish their exam, but they still didn’t contact each other. On the day of the girl’s result out, the girl accidentally cut her own finger and was admitted into hospital. Thinking of the guy, the girl sends the guy a message to inform him once she got her hand phone. The guy does show some concern at first, he phone the girl once he got the message, and ask about the situation. He seems very unhappy when the girl told him that her church member is beside her to accompany her, and her parents are coming all the way from the hometown to visit her. He felt left out and that the girl didn’t put him as priority in her life.
Putting down the phone, the girl is happy that the guy does show some concern about her. But few minutes later, her heart broke down, as what her finger did. She receive the guy’s message saying that he decided to broke with the girl and this is his final decision, he want the girl don have anything to do with him anymore. The girl was shocked again, and the disappointment, the sadness and the self-balminess all come upon her.
Two days in hospital without eating n drinking was a disaster for the girl. With one of her hand finger cut, another hand on intravenous antibiotic that is famous for painful sensation, the girl could not do anything in the hospital except sleeping. But even sleeping, she dreams of the guy. When she wakes up, she felt hungry, she thinks of the guy. When she can’t stand the pain of her both hands, she think of how pain is her heart upon reading the guys message. She is sad, she is disappointed, and she is hopeless.
After the hospital stay, the girl went back to her hometown, and spent two months of holiday there, thinking about the guy, and their sweet memory, but she don’t have the gut to message the guy to tell him she miss him so so so dying much. With the bandage on her hand, she felt she is useless, and just hope she will get over with the wounded hand as soon as possible.
Two months pass again, the girl birthday pass again too, she never receive anything from guy during her birthday, and the 1st birthday after both of them got together. Lonely and sad.
So there is this one day, one of the classmates of both guy and girl get married, both of them are invited to the wedding. At first, the girl heard from the wedding girl, the guy is not going to attend the wedding. Without doubt in mind, she went for the wedding, and she saw the guy inside the wedding hall.
Both of them sat on different table, and the distance between both of them actually just less than 4 feet, they didn’t say hi to each other, neither do they look at each other. The girl left the wedding hall earlier, to attend some other meeting in church.
The next day after the wedding, the girl receive the 1st message after two month from the guy, sound, come to my house now, I got something to give u. Reluctantly, the girl went and the guy bring out all the memory gift and photo both of them have and return it to the girl, and ask the girl to go off.
The girl was sad, she ask the guy, I really don’t have any chance? The guy says with a emotionless face, No. The girl went off.
An hour later, she receive a message from the guy, telling her he wanted to break with her and want to have some serious talk with her. The girl really felt frustrated, a guy that talk to her emotionless and chase her out from his house message her now asked to have some serious talk to her.
The girl was soft-hearted, he went, and after much explanation, both of them talk it off, and get together again.
But that’s not the end of the story.
Two days later, which is CNY eve, the guy ask the girl went to his house, late at midnight, alone and by motorcycle, the girl think of her own safety and her parent’s advice, refuse to go. The guy was upset and sends a message telling the girl he wanted to break.
Then two days later, the guy ask the girl to his house, and the girl get a real bad scold by the guy and a real bad hit and slap again by the guy. She came out from his house with both her eyes red and swollen. The guy’s dad saw her, so she try to hide her feeling and try to smile at the dad. But, deep inside her heart, she told herself, she had had enough with this guy. She is not going to get slap by him anymore, she is not going to be together with this guy anymore.
Story didn’t end like this.
A month pass, the girl had went back to KL continue her study, the guy too. Both of them didn’t contact each other. But this time, the girl had thought carefully for her future. She stop attending the Saturday night service of her church, she refuse to be arranged transport by church member. Instead, she insist of taking LRT and but to the church. An ideal lifestyle which the guy will like the girl to do so, but the girl didn’t do this for the guy, she knows. Both of them didn’t contact each other for long already.
One happening day, the guy message the girl, telling the girl he is at somewhere near the girl’s house, ask the girl whether he can go find her. At first, the girl say ok, then she think it over again, she remember days before, her mum just message her telling her, your future is determine by the decision you make.
So, the girl message backs the guy and turns him down. Insulted and angry, the guy reply her and telling her don’t regret for her decision. He is going to find another girl and he doesn’t know what will happen between him and another girl. He hopes the girl won’t regret for that. Determined, the girl told the guy she won’t regret and the guy reply and bye to the girl.
Sad inside her heart, but at the same time glad she had made a decision, the girl wanted to start a new life again. But again, the story didn’t end.
Two days after that, the guy phone the girl, asking why she turns him down on that day? The girl was shocked. So they talk it off again and the girl returns to the guy’s arm again. They are together for quite some time, the guy never ever told the girl he love her or give any promise, but he want the girl to show him more love, and trying to change the girl lifestyle.
Months later, both of their exams coming, with the guy’s exam come first. The girl pray hard for the guy to do well in the exam, hoping that after the exam, the guy will treat her better.
To her dismay, the guy finish exam and ask to meet with the girl straight after his exam, which is few days before the girl’s exam. The girl told the guy they can meet but for short while because she is busying preparing for the exam, she knows she is self-fish. Unsatisfied, the guy was angry and asks for break. Of course the girl does not have any say, so they broke up. The girl sat for the exam with a broken heart, she thought she did badly for the exam, but luckily she didn’t.
One week after the girl’s exam, she receive a message from the guy, asking her to return back the book he had borrowed her in hometown as soon as possible. But the girl didn’t go back hometown, and won’t be meeting with him in any time soon. So she asks favor from her best friend to pass the book to his family member.
Upon receive the book, the guy send an email to the girl, telling her he don’t want to have anything relationship to do with the girl anymore. And she told the girl not to reply his email or disturb him anymore in future. The girl obeys and she told herself, she had return to single status.
This story is going to end soon, but not here.
Two month later, one midnight, the girl just finish packing her stuff to went back KL after her holiday in her hometown. And the girl is preparing to go to sleep. Suddenly the phone ring, it is 1am at that time. Reluctantly, the girl picks up the phone, and she saw the guy’s phone number appear at her hand phone.
Shocked, she answers. Apparently, the guy say he is calling just because he suddenly thinks of wanted to apologize to the girl. Over the phone, the guy told the girl, he is after some other girl currently, and that girl is more than 10 times better than her. He also told that he is tire waiting for the girl to contact and ask why the girl never contacts her. The girl answers in her mind, because your last email told me not to reply, but she didn’t say it out.
Then both of them keep on chatting, and they come to a agreement, the guy told the girl, actually the girl that he love is her, and the another girl that he say he is going to go after is actually the girl that love her. That girl is the one that make initiative to treat him well, not the girl that he actually loves. He still loves her, and still can’t forget her. Both of them talk it out, and they are together again.
Days later, both of them meet, and have a great time together. But the girl notices something, the guy keep on message with someone while they are together. She knew something bad is going to happen.
True enough, few days after they together, one night, the guy message the girl, telling her that actually he don’t have same feeling as during the pass to the girl anymore. And he wants to break with the girl.
Shocked again, the girl cant stand all this anymore, but she accept the truth, she agree to break with the guy.
That night, she felt extremely sad, she shout, she cries, she screams as loud as possible on that night. She is going to get a counseling section with some good counselor soon, and she hope she is going to be well.
The story of them end here, the development of the girl is coming soon.
And I pray that she is well. She is fine.
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Friday, December 07, 2007
Mooncake
I still remember the mooncake festival this year, it is the toughest festival i had ever celebrate in life.
And it is really really really sad.......
That day oso my school sports day closing ceremony.
Here is what happen on that day.
In the morning, i was struggling whether want to go n watch the closing ceremony or not, because no friend teman me go, i dont have much friend in school that time.
But eventually i do went.
Before i go school, i receive a msg, a breaking news msg.
I keep sms-ing that time, until my hp credit reach rm0.00.
I m shock, rush to groccery shop to top up, and then go school.
Watch the closing ceremony, while keep msg-ing someone.
The things that happen on that night really break my heart......into pieces.
Do u know that it is very painful when u wanted so much to celebrate mooncake festival with ur love one but he rejected and told u he is going to celebrate with another girl...and few minutes later he told u he is just bluffing u and there is actually no girl involve, just he dont want to celebrate with u.....and few months later he call u and told u he is planning to go after another girl and ask to break with u...?!
No need to understand, i oso dont hope i will understand all this.
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Saturday, December 01, 2007
hospital
28/11/2007 1530 i cut my finger while trying to open d dead tie by carefour guard, blood oozing out, i tot jz normal, wan to stop it quickly, but i gailed to suck it..
rush out to room, tell roomate, she insist of me going clinic.
went down, saw a taxi, ask him bring me to d nearest clinic, d taxi driver ask me not to dirty his car sommore..
den reach a malay clinic... d dr there say may b tendon broke, need to go hospital...
didnt bring phone, call dad using clinic phone, ask for unc;e no..
phone uncle, uncle come in 30 min time. rush to HUKM..
28/11/2007 1615 reach HUKM, go emergency department.. wait for c dr. First see a nurse, tetanus toxoid injected.
28/11/2007 1645 register to see dr. Wait at waiting room.
28/11/2007 1800 went in dr room... open wound, get an xray done, ask for rewound bandaging.. come out wait again.
28/11/2007 1915 went in dr room again, say need confirmation from orthopedic to decide whether need to stay in hospital, confirm tendon broke..
28/11/2007 2045 orthopedic come, confirm need to stay, saline put, blood stop oozing out. Extensor digitorum tendon broke, need a wound debritement operation...
28/11/2007 2130 admit to hospital...
28/11/2007 2230 eat my dinner.
28/11/2007 2300 a chinese dr come n tell that there has been an emergency case need operation, may hv to delay my operation.. Get my signature for operation..
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29/11/2007 0530 wake up to get my BP measurement done, inject cloxacilin IV ly.
29/11/2007 0800 Parents reach KL...
29/11/2007 0830 Dr visit, with a group of medical student...
29/11/2007 1230 Senior phone, confirm pass EOS.
29/11/2007 1300 Dad n sis leave..
29/11/2007 1400 IV cloxacilin again..
29/11/2007 1900 IV water, den cloxacilin..
29/11/2007 2300 fast for 24 hours dy....
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30/11/2007 0115 Called for operation... went to operation theatre, geanaral anesthesia, sleep...
30/11/2007 0300 wake up, finish operation. went back.
30/11/2007 0500 wake up for BP measurement.
30/11/2007 0700 Dr visit, can b discharged.
30/11/2007 1130 Discharged from hospital, back to vista, keep things.
30/11/2007 1300 Back to ayer tawar... Finish story, start oral cloxacilin...
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
不能双手弹琴的日子
28/11/2007 下午三点，在等待五点去大学拿那令人害怕的成绩时，打算整理一下自己的桌子，刚刚去了Carefour，其中一个书包被那保安人员用一个塑料绳子绑了起来，就拿起剪刀要剪掉那塑料绳子，但是剪刀好像不够利，剪不断，就用刀片，刚好桌上有把新的刀片，是前几天拿出来借人割东西的。我不假思索，就拿起那把刀片，往塑料绳子切了下去。
一切下去，糟糕了，另一边手指满了鲜血，一滴一滴地滴在地上，我大叫一声，打算用水洗掉那些血，可是，那血还是照流不止，就像开着的水龙头，一直流，不管我怎么做，那血还是不能止住....
于是马上冲出房间，房友在客厅，她看见我的情况，也紧张起来，我俩讨论怎么办，我说，没什么，血一下会止了（其实我没什么把握），叫一个会FirstAid的同学来包扎一下就可以了。她说，不能，一定要去看医生，怕发生什么事，我们就这样匆匆忙忙的下楼去，搭计程车去诊疗所，电话都没带。医生帮我检查后，叫我去医院，因为他怀疑我连筋都割断了，需要动手术接回。医生帮我将伤口包扎起来，暂时解决了血一直流的问题。
当时我不知怎么办，因为，我没带电话出门，不知联络谁。没办法，只好用诊疗所电话致电爸爸（其他成人的电话号码我不会背），向他要了舅舅的电话。舅舅之后送我到了医院。
晚上九点，医生才确认我必须住院动手术。长话短说，这间医院太糟糕了，从四点抵达这里，九点才被专科医生通知需入院动手术...而且我是被送入紧急部门的哦。我是手指问题还没什么，可是身边那些快垂死的病人，竟和我一起在等待！！
HUKM, 这就是去年世界排名1?? 的大学的医院，去年因排名高过马大，荣升全国最好大学位置，可是它的医院却是这样的。难怪今年的世界大学排名中，连这间大学也跌出200名以外。
晚上十一点，我吃完在医院的第一也是最后一个餐（因为过后我足足禁食禁水了二十八个小时！！），也签下了动手术证书。医生来告诉我其实当晚他们打算为我动手术的，但是突然有个Emergency案发生，危及人命，手术室不够用，明天早上才可以为我开刀，要我谅解。
30/11/2007 凌晨一点，已经二十六个小时没喝水及进食了，护士才来叫我去动手术。手术时间竟然可以从前天晚上拖到现在！！
早上十点，我终于可以出院了，可是手被包扎得像木乃伊的手那样，里面放了一只铁。
那天，开始了我不能双手弹琴的日子，因为筋（Tendon）需要六星期来复原，不是Regeneration,是Fibrosis。六星期后，我才可以开始物理治疗，才可以开始双手弹琴。现在，坐在钢琴前，只能用一边手弹，有点担心我的右手会Hypertrophy，其实是不可能的事啦。
就祈祷我的手指快快复原吧！！ =)
December 12, 2007 at 09:27 AM
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
My choice
Finally finish my 1st summative edy, so happy, but its only d 1st exam, still got alot more......n avthing i study now had to last till sem10...cant imagine, dat time i oledi in clinical school dy lor..
Local uni result out dis monday, surprisingly i got medicine in usm, is one of my favourite choice but yet not my first choice. Anyway, b4 d result out, i oledi make up my mind i don wan to shift uni dy, i m very happy here, with lots of friends around, going to d best chinese church in kl, having so many ppls care about me here........
But reality come when i went bac hometown after my summative, dad wan me go USM, which my campus is at kelantan.........I don wan to go, i jst start my life here, now need to adapt to new environment again?! Den another suggestion come, go NUS study in faculty of science which offer me a place there......but i wan to continue at IMU leh...
I know its a 2k vs 5k vs 50k decision, i cant afford to chose 50k but i really don wan d 2k one..... My cg leader told me, jz believe in GOD, He will prepare avtins for me, i believe n i believe if God wan me to stay back, he sure will provide n give me d correct answer..
Haiz, hd to relax n enjoy my 1st holiday in uni first, don think so much, believe all in God's hand!!!
June 22, 2007 at 12:29 PM
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Colourful World
Recently i dye my hair, em, i should say, i blonde my hair...
Really unbelievable ya, i oso think so, nvr think dat i will dye my hair in my life...
But something change my mind, i realize God is a colourful God, n now we hd enter an era of colourful world...
Few years ago, we only hv black white screen hp..
Few years back, d pc we use is in black n white screen..
Few more years back, d photostat machine we hv can only photostat n give us black n white pages..d printer we use can only print black n white pages oso..
Few more more years back, d TV we(ooo, is our parents) watch is in black n white screen...
Few more more more years back, d inks we use for writing only hv black colour....
Few more more more more years back................
Ya, todays world is a colourful world, we hv colourful advertisment to attract customers, we have colour printer, d pc we use is in colour screen, d hp mos of d teenages hold is colour hp, everywhere we c is colourful world, houses no more paint in black n white only, there's alot of colours....
Actually there's nothing to do with our hair colour, jst i wan to try somethings different, to make a different, to b more colourful in appearance, i don wan to b a dull looking person, n don wan to b a nerd too, although i use to b.....
So, i blonde n cut my hair 2 weeks ago, at a church member's house.
I know if i don hv inner strength n inner beauty, there's no point for me to hv a blonde hair n b fashionable in outlook...
Like what Pastor Aries that come to my church last weekend mention.. Some ppl may b very conservative outward, but very dirty inside, this is fa li sai ren ; whereas, some ppl can b fashionable n colourful in their appearance but inside them, they r conservative, ie they r very strong in God's word, they respect their parents, they try to excell in everything they do.... Dis is d new era christian!! N dis is oso my ambition n goal..
Oya, for my church member in my hometown n those who r still in school, there's something call school rules, so pls don abide d rules, i m not encouraging u all to dye ur hair, u will hv chance once u excell academically n enter uni..
Hope everyone got bless........ ^_^
July 23, 2007 at 10:23 PM
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
大学生活
终于又有机会写部落了，这次想用华文写，就练练我的华文吧，也顺便证明自己是个华校生，并以此为荣。
屈指一算，自己在这件所谓（也是事实啦）全吉隆坡最贵的大学念书已有将近七个月了，也念完了大学第一年的基本课程，现在在等着十一月那恐怖的大考，也开始进入System课程了，去了医院几趟，虽然好像都是去玩而已（没有啦，我有认真听，因为要交报告的喔），可是至今仍未见过死尸，塑料做的模型就看和摸了很多。。。
这篇就写写自己在IMU的经历吧，毕竟我念的这间是私立大学，许多方面都和本地大学不一样，单单讲学费就够了，尤其是医科。
想起几个月前自己放弃马来西亚理科大学的入学资格，偶尔会觉得有点可惜，毕竟拿到本地大学任何一间大学的医学系是许多STPM生的愿望，那学费真是便宜到没话说，我从来都没想过原来马来西亚政府花了这么大笔钱来培养本地的医生，本地大学的医学生只需以少过十巴仙的费用来完成与我们私立大学医学生一样的五年课程！！
但是既然已经作了决定留在私立大学，就要坚持自己的选择。在我的大学里，多数的学生都来自富有的家庭，很多位父母都是专业人士，其中为医生最多（至少都现在为止我知道的是这样），不然就是牙医，工程师，政治家，老师，政府部门高级职员，教授，企业家。。。等等。
曾经有同学问我：“你的父母是医生吗？”我说不是，他接下来就问，“那位为什么你要来念医科？”我呆在那儿，笑笑，不知如何回答。不是我不知道为什么我选这课，是我实在很惊讶，难道只有医生的孩子才可念医科吗，我的意思是，在私立大学念医科吗？
不要以为这里的学生都是靠钱才进到的喔，许多人都对私立大学生有偏见，尤其像我念这间学费贵得可以买一辆汽车（Kancil啦）的大学，可能很多人会认为在私立大学念医科的学生都是因为政府大学不要收他们才来这里念的（这也是为何几个月前我父母想尽办法要说服我去念政府大学），这想法可是大错特错了，我的同学中，也有些是拿到政府大学医科系的，不但如此，也有些甚至是拿到外国大学入学资格的，如新加坡国立大学，澳洲墨尔本大学，英国剑桥大学，台湾台北大学等等。
我承认这里的学生很富有，可是许多学生都是很友善，不骄傲做作的。还有这里多数是华人，受英文教育的华人，印度人也不少，也有马来同胞，外国学生，但比率上华人占多。马来同胞不用多说，大家也心知肚明，他们很多个背后都有政府撑腰的，也就是说是JPA或MARA赞助生。
这里的学生多多少少都有一定的智商，而且由于家庭背景都比较好，尤其那些父母是医生的，在还未进大学前都有接触到关于这方面的知识，许多时候教授还未教某些科目时，他们都明白了。
唯一遗憾的是，这里许多华人不译华文，一些会讲，但不会看华文，有时候也真为他们感到可惜，身为华人，自己的母语都不译，也难免太丢脸了吧。为何我从来没有看过不译马来文的马来人或不译印度文的印度人或不会讲英文的英国人？但是无论如何，我也应该感谢他们，与他们沟通久了我发现自己的英文进步了不少，至少现在要我讲英文我不会像以前那么辛苦的想着下个字要怎么说。
由于在大学天天都是English，课本英文，讲章英文，考试英文，沟通英文，在图书馆讲英文，在讲堂讲英文，去医院讲英文，去大学的基督团契讲英文，复印书本讲英文，买东西讲英文，跟朋友聊天讲英文，什么都是英文，害我现在在大学看见任何人自然都会说英文。
记得有一天一位学长来我家，看见我正在看华文报，马上对我说，“嘿，原来你会看华文报的啊，为何还要害我每次陪你说英文？！”当时突然觉得自己被训得莫名其妙，原来有人认为我是“香蕉人”啊，不是吧！！！
无论如何，我真的要为自己能够在IMU念书感恩，还有四年多，为我加油吧！！
September 23, 2007 at 10:51 AM
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
New sport shoe
Was in hospital recently for my finger-surgery check up.
Saw one blind guy, his parents beside him holding his hand, he is wearing a new shoe.
I can see how much the parents care for him.
Yes true, when we have trouble, the only people we can trust is our family members, esp our parents...NOT our bf/gf or friends...!!
I admire the boy's parents, i can imagine all those hardship they had gone thru in life to bring this boy up...
Even he is blind, his parents still trying to give him the best,
he is wearing a very nice shirt, a nice new shoe, and a nice pants.
So, bond with ur family more, and sick will make u realize what is actually important in ur life...........and who actually takes care of u.
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Third Party
I always think this wont happen, but after much thinking, i think what i think is correct.
Third party is always between my relationship.
When i refuse to teman him, he treaten he will go other girl house to spend a night with her.
When i make him angry, he say he will go out with the girl.
When we quarrel, he will ask me why cant i treat him better abit, like how the other girl treat her.
When we break, he say he want to have a new life with another girl.
The last time he phone me, he told me he is planning to accept another girl, the girl that like him very much and can treat him more than 10 times better than me.
Now, maybe he is with that girl, give her promises that he used to give me, make her the happiest girl in the world. Force her to change (maybe?!).
Sometime i do miss everything that happen, but i know things that had changed cant change back, mistake that had make cant be corrected again.
I keep myself busy these few weeks, just to let the time do its work, ya, i m happier now.
Ppl always think that i break up with my bf is because of religion reason,
But inside my heart, i know another reason is third party.
I don tell my classmates during the "True story telling" time when we last have our gathering in Mvalley, i dono will they believe, but i know it's true.
My ex-bf left me for another girl.
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Friday, December 07, 2007
one year edy...
Story of them.
This is what I want to say:
About a story of 1 blur girl n 1 smart guy.
I am going to do my confession already anyway. So I m not afraid typing out it here.
There is a guy and a girl who grown out together in a same small town. They are in same class since primary school, till finish form 5.
Dec 2006, the girl just finishes her STPM, and she went on a trip to Johor with her good friend to attend a church camp.
On the way back to their hometown, the guy thrown out a question to the girl, “will u be my girlfriend?”
The girl accepted him, but she is afraid of her strict family background that do not allow her to went into a relationship so fast, so, she didn’t give the guy a very clear answer, but in her heart, she had accepted him…….But he dono, he thought the girl don’t like him and just simply give an answer to entertain him..
Weeks after, the guy is going back to KL to further his study, the girl just finish exam, so is at home waiting for result, but meanwhile, she got an offer to an private uni in KL too, commerce at Feb 2007.
One day, the guy suddenly phones the girl, telling her that he is coming back from KL to their hometown, and he wanted to meet the girl.
Overjoying, the girl waited for the day of his return. And he didn’t disappointed the girl either, both of them have a great time celebrating Christmas together, the guy brought the girl a Christmas gift, which according to him also can be the girls birthday gift as the girl birthday is few days after Christmas.
Few days later, the girl went to KL to settle her pre enter university procedure, and she asks the guy out too. She also asks her other good friend out too, and they did come. The guy purposely took a taxi to the shopping complex to meet up with the girl. The girl that still haven’t give him a CONFIRM answer of their relationship. Well, great times are spent in KL as well.
A month passes by, the girl doesn’t know about her status, the guy too. Both of them keep on SMS each other and keep a more-than-friendship kind of relationship. And the guy will call the girl every fortnight to tell her how much he love her. She felt that she is a very lucky girl at that time, and she purposely sleep late to wait for his call every single night.
Then it was valentine day, the girl went to Taiwan with her mum and misses the opportunity to celebrate the important day with her 1st bf, the boy was sad, the girl was disappointed too.
Days later, it is Chinese New Year, both guy n girl are in their hometown, the girl miss the opportunity to watch the firecrackers with the guy because she is busy with editing video for the church CNY Thanksgiving service. She got the order last minute and she just touched down Malaysia on CNY eve, which she obviously not given enough time to finish it, and the girl didn’t sleep at all during that CNY eve.
They met each other for the 1st time in more than 1 month in the girl’s church, and later at night, the went out for officially 1st dating together, in Lumut, the guy fetch the girl there. That night is the night the girl went home latest. She is happy, but upon reaching home, she gets scolded badly by her dad, a second scold in a day on CNY.
They relationship developed stably as time pass by. Week after CNY, the girl went to KL and start her university life there. And the guy being the one had been staying in KL for half a year, spent time to bring the girl around KL, showing her his care, and his love.
There are in love, for quite some time, on the guys birthday, the girl ask the guy out to Eyes of Malaysia to celebrate, and they have the sweetest memory there. Good time are for short while.
The next day after the guy’s birthday, the girl’s STPM result out. And to everyone surprise, the girl didn’t get full As in her STPM despite being the top student throughout her whole form 6 year in the school….
Having a real hard time to accept the truth, the girl cry off the first time in front of the guy, she is sad, and she really is. Being a top student that didn’t emerge as the top student in government exam surely a shameful moment for the girl. She refuse to answer her dad’s call, her friend’s call, just because she felt so shameful of herself. Although she got 3A1A- in STPM, but for her, this is the worst result someone would ever get, especially she knew she did very well for 2 out of 3 paper of the subject that she got A-.
The guy had give her fully support, and comfort her. She is touched.
Time pass, the girl slowly accepts the truth, and she started to apply for local university with her result. Months later, she got into NUS, not her 1st choice, medic course in a local university, not her 1st choice too.
During that period of time, the guy start going to the same church as the girl, the girl who is always very kind and don’t know how to reject people and told people her opinion had been treat one kind by her church. Due to transport problem, the girl always is the one that need to spend her time waiting for people to arrange transport for her to leave the church. And all her precious weekend time spent waiting for people to fetch. The guy doesn’t understand why the girl can stand this situation, he knows the girl know also that her time had been wasted by her church member, but she never voice out…
Sooner, time spent by the girl in church become the couple’s quarrel issue most of the time, the guy wanted the girl to stop spending so much time in the church. The church member wanted the girl stop going out with the guy so often, which already is as less as less than 1 time per week.
Deciding between church n the guy, the girl wanted to please everyone, but apparently she fail. The guy is very angry with the girl, the church member still keep on pressuring the girl and wanting her to give up on the guy.
Obviously the girl cannot give up on her 1st love so easily, but she can’t stand the church pressure and the guy’s pressure too. So the couple has a lot of conflict. Mean time, the guy felt that the girl is not respecting him as what he thinks she should. The girl that so blur till don’t know the guys feeling. She realizes this later on but it’s too late to recover the situation already.
Church member pressure, study pressure, the guy’s pressure, makes the girl felt that she is not able to take it. She cannot stand all this, yes, she would’ve love to stop going to Saturday night church service and only go for Sunday service. But she knows the church member won’t leave her alone in this issue, she sure will get discipleship once she does that. She would’ve love to go out with her boyfriend more but she knows both of them are very busy with study. This is the course both of them chose and they should bear with it.
One day, the couple has an different opinion on one thing, and they are thinking of breaking off. But they talk it off and are together again. Few weeks after that, problem happen every weeks. Every weeks, both of them will quarrel and wanted to break off at least once, and at the end of the week, they will talk it off and are together again, this scenario keep repeating for few weeks.
There is this day, when the girl doesn’t agree with the guy opinion on something, the guy lift out his hand and slap the girl. Shocked, the girl drop down into tear. She just can’t understand, a gentle guy like his boyfriend will slap girl. The guy that she loves so much and trust so much actually slap her.
Later on, both of them are together again, due to some reason, and the girl thought every problem have solved, but she is wrong again, then again, every single week, the same thing happen again, quarrel, break off, hurt, apologize, be together again………the cycle keep on repeat n repeat endlessly.
Few weeks before their exam, both of them stop contacting each other, the girl told herself, the guy need to concentrate on his study, and his love on her is not as much as when they first together dy. And the girl being a self fish student, also stop contacting the guy because she wanted to do well in her own exam too.
Finally, both of them finish their exam, but they still didn’t contact each other. On the day of the girl’s result out, the girl accidentally cut her own finger and was admitted into hospital. Thinking of the guy, the girl sends the guy a message to inform him once she got her hand phone. The guy does show some concern at first, he phone the girl once he got the message, and ask about the situation. He seems very unhappy when the girl told him that her church member is beside her to accompany her, and her parents are coming all the way from the hometown to visit her. He felt left out and that the girl didn’t put him as priority in her life.
Putting down the phone, the girl is happy that the guy does show some concern about her. But few minutes later, her heart broke down, as what her finger did. She receive the guy’s message saying that he decided to broke with the girl and this is his final decision, he want the girl don have anything to do with him anymore. The girl was shocked again, and the disappointment, the sadness and the self-balminess all come upon her.
Two days in hospital without eating n drinking was a disaster for the girl. With one of her hand finger cut, another hand on intravenous antibiotic that is famous for painful sensation, the girl could not do anything in the hospital except sleeping. But even sleeping, she dreams of the guy. When she wakes up, she felt hungry, she thinks of the guy. When she can’t stand the pain of her both hands, she think of how pain is her heart upon reading the guys message. She is sad, she is disappointed, and she is hopeless.
After the hospital stay, the girl went back to her hometown, and spent two months of holiday there, thinking about the guy, and their sweet memory, but she don’t have the gut to message the guy to tell him she miss him so so so dying much. With the bandage on her hand, she felt she is useless, and just hope she will get over with the wounded hand as soon as possible.
Two months pass again, the girl birthday pass again too, she never receive anything from guy during her birthday, and the 1st birthday after both of them got together. Lonely and sad.
So there is this one day, one of the classmates of both guy and girl get married, both of them are invited to the wedding. At first, the girl heard from the wedding girl, the guy is not going to attend the wedding. Without doubt in mind, she went for the wedding, and she saw the guy inside the wedding hall.
Both of them sat on different table, and the distance between both of them actually just less than 4 feet, they didn’t say hi to each other, neither do they look at each other. The girl left the wedding hall earlier, to attend some other meeting in church.
The next day after the wedding, the girl receive the 1st message after two month from the guy, sound, come to my house now, I got something to give u. Reluctantly, the girl went and the guy bring out all the memory gift and photo both of them have and return it to the girl, and ask the girl to go off.
The girl was sad, she ask the guy, I really don’t have any chance? The guy says with a emotionless face, No. The girl went off.
An hour later, she receive a message from the guy, telling her he wanted to break with her and want to have some serious talk with her. The girl really felt frustrated, a guy that talk to her emotionless and chase her out from his house message her now asked to have some serious talk to her.
The girl was soft-hearted, he went, and after much explanation, both of them talk it off, and get together again.
But that’s not the end of the story.
Two days later, which is CNY eve, the guy ask the girl went to his house, late at midnight, alone and by motorcycle, the girl think of her own safety and her parent’s advice, refuse to go. The guy was upset and sends a message telling the girl he wanted to break.
Then two days later, the guy ask the girl to his house, and the girl get a real bad scold by the guy and a real bad hit and slap again by the guy. She came out from his house with both her eyes red and swollen. The guy’s dad saw her, so she try to hide her feeling and try to smile at the dad. But, deep inside her heart, she told herself, she had had enough with this guy. She is not going to get slap by him anymore, she is not going to be together with this guy anymore.
Story didn’t end like this.
A month pass, the girl had went back to KL continue her study, the guy too. Both of them didn’t contact each other. But this time, the girl had thought carefully for her future. She stop attending the Saturday night service of her church, she refuse to be arranged transport by church member. Instead, she insist of taking LRT and but to the church. An ideal lifestyle which the guy will like the girl to do so, but the girl didn’t do this for the guy, she knows. Both of them didn’t contact each other for long already.
One happening day, the guy message the girl, telling the girl he is at somewhere near the girl’s house, ask the girl whether he can go find her. At first, the girl say ok, then she think it over again, she remember days before, her mum just message her telling her, your future is determine by the decision you make.
So, the girl message backs the guy and turns him down. Insulted and angry, the guy reply her and telling her don’t regret for her decision. He is going to find another girl and he doesn’t know what will happen between him and another girl. He hopes the girl won’t regret for that. Determined, the girl told the guy she won’t regret and the guy reply and bye to the girl.
Sad inside her heart, but at the same time glad she had made a decision, the girl wanted to start a new life again. But again, the story didn’t end.
Two days after that, the guy phone the girl, asking why she turns him down on that day? The girl was shocked. So they talk it off again and the girl returns to the guy’s arm again. They are together for quite some time, the guy never ever told the girl he love her or give any promise, but he want the girl to show him more love, and trying to change the girl lifestyle.
Months later, both of their exams coming, with the guy’s exam come first. The girl pray hard for the guy to do well in the exam, hoping that after the exam, the guy will treat her better.
To her dismay, the guy finish exam and ask to meet with the girl straight after his exam, which is few days before the girl’s exam. The girl told the guy they can meet but for short while because she is busying preparing for the exam, she knows she is self-fish. Unsatisfied, the guy was angry and asks for break. Of course the girl does not have any say, so they broke up. The girl sat for the exam with a broken heart, she thought she did badly for the exam, but luckily she didn’t.
One week after the girl’s exam, she receive a message from the guy, asking her to return back the book he had borrowed her in hometown as soon as possible. But the girl didn’t go back hometown, and won’t be meeting with him in any time soon. So she asks favor from her best friend to pass the book to his family member.
Upon receive the book, the guy send an email to the girl, telling her he don’t want to have anything relationship to do with the girl anymore. And she told the girl not to reply his email or disturb him anymore in future. The girl obeys and she told herself, she had return to single status.
This story is going to end soon, but not here.
Two month later, one midnight, the girl just finish packing her stuff to went back KL after her holiday in her hometown. And the girl is preparing to go to sleep. Suddenly the phone ring, it is 1am at that time. Reluctantly, the girl picks up the phone, and she saw the guy’s phone number appear at her hand phone.
Shocked, she answers. Apparently, the guy say he is calling just because he suddenly thinks of wanted to apologize to the girl. Over the phone, the guy told the girl, he is after some other girl currently, and that girl is more than 10 times better than her. He also told that he is tire waiting for the girl to contact and ask why the girl never contacts her. The girl answers in her mind, because your last email told me not to reply, but she didn’t say it out.
Then both of them keep on chatting, and they come to a agreement, the guy told the girl, actually the girl that he love is her, and the another girl that he say he is going to go after is actually the girl that love her. That girl is the one that make initiative to treat him well, not the girl that he actually loves. He still loves her, and still can’t forget her. Both of them talk it out, and they are together again.
Days later, both of them meet, and have a great time together. But the girl notices something, the guy keep on message with someone while they are together. She knew something bad is going to happen.
True enough, few days after they together, one night, the guy message the girl, telling her that actually he don’t have same feeling as during the pass to the girl anymore. And he wants to break with the girl.
Shocked again, the girl cant stand all this anymore, but she accept the truth, she agree to break with the guy.
That night, she felt extremely sad, she shout, she cries, she screams as loud as possible on that night. She is going to get a counseling section with some good counselor soon, and she hope she is going to be well.
The story of them end here, the development of the girl is coming soon.
And I pray that she is well. She is fine.
=End=
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Friday, December 07, 2007
Mooncake
I still remember the mooncake festival this year, it is the toughest festival i had ever celebrate in life.
And it is really really really sad.......
That day oso my school sports day closing ceremony.
Here is what happen on that day.
In the morning, i was struggling whether want to go n watch the closing ceremony or not, because no friend teman me go, i dont have much friend in school that time.
But eventually i do went.
Before i go school, i receive a msg, a breaking news msg.
I keep sms-ing that time, until my hp credit reach rm0.00.
I m shock, rush to groccery shop to top up, and then go school.
Watch the closing ceremony, while keep msg-ing someone.
The things that happen on that night really break my heart......into pieces.
Do u know that it is very painful when u wanted so much to celebrate mooncake festival with ur love one but he rejected and told u he is going to celebrate with another girl...and few minutes later he told u he is just bluffing u and there is actually no girl involve, just he dont want to celebrate with u.....and few months later he call u and told u he is planning to go after another girl and ask to break with u...?!
No need to understand, i oso dont hope i will understand all this.
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Saturday, December 01, 2007
hospital
28/11/2007 1530 i cut my finger while trying to open d dead tie by carefour guard, blood oozing out, i tot jz normal, wan to stop it quickly, but i gailed to suck it..
rush out to room, tell roomate, she insist of me going clinic.
went down, saw a taxi, ask him bring me to d nearest clinic, d taxi driver ask me not to dirty his car sommore..
den reach a malay clinic... d dr there say may b tendon broke, need to go hospital...
didnt bring phone, call dad using clinic phone, ask for unc;e no..
phone uncle, uncle come in 30 min time. rush to HUKM..
28/11/2007 1615 reach HUKM, go emergency department.. wait for c dr. First see a nurse, tetanus toxoid injected.
28/11/2007 1645 register to see dr. Wait at waiting room.
28/11/2007 1800 went in dr room... open wound, get an xray done, ask for rewound bandaging.. come out wait again.
28/11/2007 1915 went in dr room again, say need confirmation from orthopedic to decide whether need to stay in hospital, confirm tendon broke..
28/11/2007 2045 orthopedic come, confirm need to stay, saline put, blood stop oozing out. Extensor digitorum tendon broke, need a wound debritement operation...
28/11/2007 2130 admit to hospital...
28/11/2007 2230 eat my dinner.
28/11/2007 2300 a chinese dr come n tell that there has been an emergency case need operation, may hv to delay my operation.. Get my signature for operation..
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29/11/2007 0530 wake up to get my BP measurement done, inject cloxacilin IV ly.
29/11/2007 0800 Parents reach KL...
29/11/2007 0830 Dr visit, with a group of medical student...
29/11/2007 1230 Senior phone, confirm pass EOS.
29/11/2007 1300 Dad n sis leave..
29/11/2007 1400 IV cloxacilin again..
29/11/2007 1900 IV water, den cloxacilin..
29/11/2007 2300 fast for 24 hours dy....
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30/11/2007 0115 Called for operation... went to operation theatre, geanaral anesthesia, sleep...
30/11/2007 0300 wake up, finish operation. went back.
30/11/2007 0500 wake up for BP measurement.
30/11/2007 0700 Dr visit, can b discharged.
30/11/2007 1130 Discharged from hospital, back to vista, keep things.
30/11/2007 1300 Back to ayer tawar... Finish story, start oral cloxacilin...
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Her name is Qian. Female, Perak, Malaysia
Long black hair. Black eyes. Quiet/polite to strangers. Crazy & random to friends.
Her birthday cake adds a candle every 28Dec.
A normal girl who come from a small town call AYER TAWAR but study in a sophisticated uni call INTERNATIONAL Medical University
Loves writing, loves reading, loves shopping, loves talking, loves MUSIC n MATHS.
Christian. Loves Bible. Prayer is important.
Student. Capable of camping in library whole day long, for 2 weeks.
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